Its true. I honestly believe slendy when he says he didn't hurt Ry. Its strange...one moment slendy outright tells me he isn't capable of compassion and the next he goes and tries to help us find a missing person all for the sake of one little kid. Truly, I don't understand how that mind of his works.
We've still got nothing...this is horrible. Slendy is outraged half of the time I see him. Thankfully its not directed towards any of us this time. Every time ///It/// shows up slendy pretty much goes crazy and chases after It. Slendy and the rest of us clearly think It had something to do with this. I don't know if It just finally snapped and broke whatever truce it had with slendy or if there's a reason behind this madness. I doubt Its just angry that slendy showed Chas and I mercy. That, of course, may be a contributing factor but I think something else is going on.
Chas tried to leave again, by the way. I was drinking milk in the kitchen last night at like...3 and I heard someone coming down stairs. I turned on the light and it was Chas. We stared at each other for a moment and then I felt those familiar burning eyes on my back. I turned around and slendy was there lurking in the corner. Chas, of course, freaked out.
Me: Chas! Please calm down he isn't going to hurt you here.
Chas: Where am I? How did we get here? The last thing I remember is walking down the street after escaping from you guys tying me up and the next thing I know I'm in some strange room days later.
Me: It was him. (I gesture behind me to slendy, who is totally eavesdropping.) He caught you while you were running and brought you here.
Chas: No...no...he isn't real. He isn't! This is a dream. It...it...
Chas started freaking out at that point. It figures...he's lost his grip on reality.
Me: Chas...calm down...please...its all right! I'm here...I'll always be here for you.
Chas: I can't be here. I have to figure out what happened with Kyle. I can't be with you until I do.
Me: If you go outside there's absolutely no guarantee that you won't be killed. I know you don't believe in Slender Man. Well whether you believe or not, there's another one of him waiting right outside the door there and that thing is about a million times more dangerous than him (I gesture back to slendy again and turn around to find that he's standing right behind me.).
At that point I hear slendy trying to speak to me. I reluctantly let my guard down and his voice echoes in my mind.
Slendy: I have let you live this long as a favor. You are both living on borrowed time. However, I will not hurt either of you for the time being. Why not let him go?
Me: You seem to be forgetting my original point that your more dangerous counterpart is out there waiting for one of us to leave. For all we know It already got Ry...
Slendy: I will not allow that creature to hurt your mate. He is my prey, as are you.
Me: (Heavy with sarcasm) Oh, I'm so relieved.
Slendy: Do not mock me, child. There is nothing stopping me from killing you both right here. I choose not to because I made a promise. I always keep my word. The one you call Ryan is in danger because I was unaware of his departure. I could not be there in time to protect him. You, however, I have been monitoring constantly. You will never be free from me, remember that.
Chas is still frozen in fear in the other side of the room at this point.
Chas: Wh...who are you talking to?
Me: Slendy. Oh, right you can't hear him can you?
Chas: You...you're crazy. This is all crazy. ITS NOT REAL, GOD DAMMIT.
Me: Chas, please keep your voice down. Look, I know what happened with Kyle. I know that you were a proxy before you met me. You escaped from slendy and now he wants you back. Slendy made you kill Kyle, it wasn't your fault!
Chas: Wh...what? I...
Slendy: So, you've worked it out. No matter, shall I put him to sleep again? His mind needs more time to adjust.
Me: I don't think there's any other way.
Slendy stares pointedly at Chas. Chas cringes for a moment but then falls to the floor, asleep. Slendy then places a hand on my shoulder and looks down at me.
Me: Um...why are you touching me?
Slendy: I wish to show you something.
Me: What?
Slendy: The Godsway, or, as it is also known, the Path of Black Leaves. You humans give it many names.
I'm truly shocked at this point. Why would he want to show me that? I'm not one of his servants.
Me: What the fuck? Firstly, why would you want to take me there? Secondly, why the hell would I want to go there.
Slendy: I wish to see if your mind can handle it. Usually it is difficult even for my servants to go there. You are not my servant, though you will be soon, I can assure you. I am merely curious.
Me: Can it wait? I need to care for Chastin.
Slendy thinks for a moment.
Slendy: Yes...perhaps that is best. I must continue my search. I will not warn you when I decide to take you there, however.
The next think I know he's gone and I'm standing there staring at empty space. I go to pick up Chastin and drag his ass back to bed.
I'm disturbed to be honest...god....I didn't realize just how much damage this has done to Chastin's mind.
I need to be on guard. Slendy said he wouldn't warn me when he decided to take me to the Path of Black Leaves. I'm seriously freaked out right now...why the fuck would he want me to go there? I don't understand that monster...
Anyway...that was my adventure. I need to go back to helping look for Ry. Hopefully this will all make sense soon...
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Saturday, June 25, 2011
This must be our fault...
We still haven't found Ry...god I feel horrible for Taben. I've been helping them look but so far we've got nothing. I don't want to be...morbid...but I'm concerned that Slender Man did something. I feel like this is his way of getting some sort of sick revenge on Aiden and Taben for taking us in.
I'm so sorry, Taben...I promise I'll do everything in my power to help. I swear.
I'm so sorry, Taben...I promise I'll do everything in my power to help. I swear.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
This has been a fun last 12 or so hours
Its kind of strange being here in this new place. I guess I kind of feel...out of the loop? I don't know. All I can really do here is look after Chastin. I heard Ry and Taben fighting last night...it reminded me of the many problems Chastin and I have. I gave Taben a hug, but there isn't much else to say or do that can make that kind of pain go away...
Allen's screaming this morning was...frightening. I thought we were being attacked to be honest. I feel really bad for the little guy...this has been a really rough 12 hours for Taben, too.
I wish I could do something to help everyone. I wish I could be more than just a bystander here.
I don't think Chastin's going to come back if he leaves. I don't think he loves me anymore...not after all that's happened in the last few months. I still care for him, but he tends to be...fickle.
I never did try those words I dreamed about on slendy. I wouldn't even dare try them on It...too risky. They've both been here constantly for a few days. Slendy's angry again...I think something bad is about to happen.
Oh! Chastin is stirring! Finally...lazy ass...
Allen's screaming this morning was...frightening. I thought we were being attacked to be honest. I feel really bad for the little guy...this has been a really rough 12 hours for Taben, too.
I wish I could do something to help everyone. I wish I could be more than just a bystander here.
I don't think Chastin's going to come back if he leaves. I don't think he loves me anymore...not after all that's happened in the last few months. I still care for him, but he tends to be...fickle.
I never did try those words I dreamed about on slendy. I wouldn't even dare try them on It...too risky. They've both been here constantly for a few days. Slendy's angry again...I think something bad is about to happen.
Oh! Chastin is stirring! Finally...lazy ass...
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
I remember now
I remember the words I spoke in my dream that drove slendy and ///It/// away. I was wrong about it being 3 words, it was 4. I was sitting in bed thinking and they came to me.
The words were "Tu Fui, Ego Eris", which is Latin for "As I am, so you shall also be". It's put on graves in certain parts of the world to remind people of their mortality.
And, yes, I know its also from Silent Hill 3.
I think dream me spoke those words in particular because I've always been pretty much in awe of the Silent Hill games (at least the first 3).
In the game, Heather uses those words to destroy a terrifying monster blocking her path. I think dream me said these words because, as a result of my love for Silent Hill, they hold some sort of meaning for me.
I guess I was thinking that, if Heather could drive off her worst nightmare with just those words, then why can't I drive off my worst nightmares with them? There must be some way out of this horror that has become my life. In the end I think that only I have the power to save myself from Slender Man. Each and every one of us being tormented by him has to find our own way out. We can help each other and stick together to make it a little easier to live through each day, but it all comes down to our own individual power.
The Slender Man is a creature of perception. I was probably thinking that, if I believe enough that the simple statement "Tu Fui, Ego Eris" has the power to protect me from the evil that's just outside my door, then maybe it really will. Belief has a surprisingly immense amount of impact in our lives. Perhaps the only way to rid ourselves of slendy is through the strength of each individual's belief. We have to convince ourselves that we can overcome this creature. We have to feel with complete conviction that we are not helpless before the power arrayed against us.
I think subconscious me was trying to tell me that with my dream. It was trying to remind me that I have to believe that I can be free before anything else. So, maybe, just maybe, those words will help me fell this demon of mine for the sole reason of them having personal meaning to me. Maybe that's all it takes...something that can strengthen one's resolve to the point where one can stand up to anything.
Maybe I'll go find slendy and say these words to him...
I just have to believe, right?
The words were "Tu Fui, Ego Eris", which is Latin for "As I am, so you shall also be". It's put on graves in certain parts of the world to remind people of their mortality.
And, yes, I know its also from Silent Hill 3.
I think dream me spoke those words in particular because I've always been pretty much in awe of the Silent Hill games (at least the first 3).
In the game, Heather uses those words to destroy a terrifying monster blocking her path. I think dream me said these words because, as a result of my love for Silent Hill, they hold some sort of meaning for me.
I guess I was thinking that, if Heather could drive off her worst nightmare with just those words, then why can't I drive off my worst nightmares with them? There must be some way out of this horror that has become my life. In the end I think that only I have the power to save myself from Slender Man. Each and every one of us being tormented by him has to find our own way out. We can help each other and stick together to make it a little easier to live through each day, but it all comes down to our own individual power.
The Slender Man is a creature of perception. I was probably thinking that, if I believe enough that the simple statement "Tu Fui, Ego Eris" has the power to protect me from the evil that's just outside my door, then maybe it really will. Belief has a surprisingly immense amount of impact in our lives. Perhaps the only way to rid ourselves of slendy is through the strength of each individual's belief. We have to convince ourselves that we can overcome this creature. We have to feel with complete conviction that we are not helpless before the power arrayed against us.
I think subconscious me was trying to tell me that with my dream. It was trying to remind me that I have to believe that I can be free before anything else. So, maybe, just maybe, those words will help me fell this demon of mine for the sole reason of them having personal meaning to me. Maybe that's all it takes...something that can strengthen one's resolve to the point where one can stand up to anything.
Maybe I'll go find slendy and say these words to him...
I just have to believe, right?
Monday, June 20, 2011
Probably doesn't matter
I had a dream last night that I was standing in the road by my parents' house. I turned around and Slender Man was standing 20 feet away. I turned around again and ///It/// was standing exactly the same distance from me. I was trapped.
If this happened to me in reality and I had to run at one of them, I'd probably choose slendy since, you know, ///It/// apparently likes to turn his victims into bloody pulp.
In my dream, however, I didn't run. I backed up to where I could see both of them and I spoke three words. I can't remember what they were. They were probably just dream gibberish, though it could have been Latin I guess. Anyway, when I spoke those words Slender Man and ///It/// both writhed in pain and disappeared.
Then I woke up, but I was still dreaming. I know right? Inception moment. Then I woke up for real and Chastin was gone. Bear and Steve were in his place and ///It/// was looking in through the window again.
I found Chastin lying on the floor by the door, knocked out. He had the left overs of a snack in his hands and his satchel was lying next to him. I think he woke up, got food, and was going to leave. How then, did he end up asleep again? It was probably slendy. God I hate it when he's around while I'm asleep...
Anyway...I wonder if my dream means something? Probably not, but it was interesting all the same.
If this happened to me in reality and I had to run at one of them, I'd probably choose slendy since, you know, ///It/// apparently likes to turn his victims into bloody pulp.
In my dream, however, I didn't run. I backed up to where I could see both of them and I spoke three words. I can't remember what they were. They were probably just dream gibberish, though it could have been Latin I guess. Anyway, when I spoke those words Slender Man and ///It/// both writhed in pain and disappeared.
Then I woke up, but I was still dreaming. I know right? Inception moment. Then I woke up for real and Chastin was gone. Bear and Steve were in his place and ///It/// was looking in through the window again.
I found Chastin lying on the floor by the door, knocked out. He had the left overs of a snack in his hands and his satchel was lying next to him. I think he woke up, got food, and was going to leave. How then, did he end up asleep again? It was probably slendy. God I hate it when he's around while I'm asleep...
Anyway...I wonder if my dream means something? Probably not, but it was interesting all the same.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Calm
I've spent most of today looking after Chastin. I cleaned him up and I've been trying to give him water. I guess I could always hook him up to an IV if he doesn't wake up soon so I can get some food in him. I learned some things from my mother apparently. Bear hasn't left Chastin's bed since we got here, I guess he missed him.
Its been fun getting to know everyone here. Allen is an adorable little ball of fun. Slendy's pretty easy to ignore here. Its kind of like how I felt when he was hanging out at my house every day for a week that time. He's just another piece of furniture. He's still mad, but I don't care. I came here to avoid him and work things out and that's what I plan to do.
Oh lovely, I turn around and ///It/// is peeking in through the window in this room. God damn...it's extremely frightening. Ai says ///It/// will never come inside because of slendy, but I still worry.
Eldritch abominations aside, its very peaceful sitting here with Chas. He's so deeply asleep...I haven't seen him this calm since we first met.
I almost don't want him to wake up...
Its been fun getting to know everyone here. Allen is an adorable little ball of fun. Slendy's pretty easy to ignore here. Its kind of like how I felt when he was hanging out at my house every day for a week that time. He's just another piece of furniture. He's still mad, but I don't care. I came here to avoid him and work things out and that's what I plan to do.
Oh lovely, I turn around and ///It/// is peeking in through the window in this room. God damn...it's extremely frightening. Ai says ///It/// will never come inside because of slendy, but I still worry.
Eldritch abominations aside, its very peaceful sitting here with Chas. He's so deeply asleep...I haven't seen him this calm since we first met.
I almost don't want him to wake up...
Far and Away
I just want to establish that we are taking the kitties with us. I know everyone (Taben) was concerned about that XD
Also, I'm assuming Chastin is still passed out in one of the guest bedrooms. If you want to leave, snuggly bear, I won't stop you. I just want you to know that its dangerous out there. I saw ///It///. I definitely prefer the Slender Man. Seriously, that creature is...an abomination. Much more so than slendderp, at least.
Slendy's been around, but he's just been ignoring me so far. He hasn't gone near Chastin as far as I know. I caught him "staring" at me once and when I looked up at him to meet his gaze at where his eyes would be I felt this kind of...roiling anger. He really doesn't like the fact that we're here, that's for sure. I guess he's mad his prey temporarily escaped him.
It was actually kind of funny...///It/// was peeking in through a window at me and slendy went outside and like...shooed him away. It made me lol. I think slendy is afraid that ///It/// is going to try to kill Chas and I. He doesn't want ///It/// taking his playthings away, I suppose.
I am reassured, at least, that ///It/// won't attack Chastin if he leaves. Slendy may want Chas either dead or under his control, but he won't let any harm come to him from anything other than himself. I gotta hand it to slendy, he's pretty dedicated.
Wow...slendy just can't win can he? Thanks for saving us Ai and Taben. Its really going to help even if Chas is almost certainly going to run away as soon as he wakes up. How do I know this? He's always been a hard headed, stubborn guy. He likes doing things on his own and I've never been able to stop him. He's...well, as I stated before, quite the badass even if he doesn't look like it.
In the very least he'll get to see his beloved cat, Bear, when he wakes up.
Also, I'm assuming Chastin is still passed out in one of the guest bedrooms. If you want to leave, snuggly bear, I won't stop you. I just want you to know that its dangerous out there. I saw ///It///. I definitely prefer the Slender Man. Seriously, that creature is...an abomination. Much more so than slendderp, at least.
Slendy's been around, but he's just been ignoring me so far. He hasn't gone near Chastin as far as I know. I caught him "staring" at me once and when I looked up at him to meet his gaze at where his eyes would be I felt this kind of...roiling anger. He really doesn't like the fact that we're here, that's for sure. I guess he's mad his prey temporarily escaped him.
It was actually kind of funny...///It/// was peeking in through a window at me and slendy went outside and like...shooed him away. It made me lol. I think slendy is afraid that ///It/// is going to try to kill Chas and I. He doesn't want ///It/// taking his playthings away, I suppose.
I am reassured, at least, that ///It/// won't attack Chastin if he leaves. Slendy may want Chas either dead or under his control, but he won't let any harm come to him from anything other than himself. I gotta hand it to slendy, he's pretty dedicated.
Wow...slendy just can't win can he? Thanks for saving us Ai and Taben. Its really going to help even if Chas is almost certainly going to run away as soon as he wakes up. How do I know this? He's always been a hard headed, stubborn guy. He likes doing things on his own and I've never been able to stop him. He's...well, as I stated before, quite the badass even if he doesn't look like it.
In the very least he'll get to see his beloved cat, Bear, when he wakes up.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
This is unexpected
So, apparantly, Chastin is now at Aiden's house. I'm certainly confused...
I'm going to assume that Chastin ran into slendy while he was off running away from us and got moved to Ai's house. Slendy must have listened to Aiden.
While I do suppose this is a good thing, I just want to warn Brennon that Chastin will probably run away the moment he wakes up and I doubt anyone there can stop him. He's a lot more badass than he looks, trust me.
I just want to tell you, Brennon, that you shouldn't try to stop him. He needs to get his head on straight before we can do anything to help him. So, if he wants to go, please let him go...
All we can really do is be there for him when he decides to come back. Slendy, I'm sure, won't try and stop him.
Chas, I'm so sorry we tied you up...Brennon's right, we shouldn't be surprised you ran away. Please forgive me...and, when you're ready, please come back to me. I just want to be together again.
So yeah, Brennon, just let him go if he wants to. He'll be ok.
I'm going to assume that Chastin ran into slendy while he was off running away from us and got moved to Ai's house. Slendy must have listened to Aiden.
While I do suppose this is a good thing, I just want to warn Brennon that Chastin will probably run away the moment he wakes up and I doubt anyone there can stop him. He's a lot more badass than he looks, trust me.
I just want to tell you, Brennon, that you shouldn't try to stop him. He needs to get his head on straight before we can do anything to help him. So, if he wants to go, please let him go...
All we can really do is be there for him when he decides to come back. Slendy, I'm sure, won't try and stop him.
Chas, I'm so sorry we tied you up...Brennon's right, we shouldn't be surprised you ran away. Please forgive me...and, when you're ready, please come back to me. I just want to be together again.
So yeah, Brennon, just let him go if he wants to. He'll be ok.
You are a stupid son of a bitch.
Chastin, I swear to God I'm going to knock you out the next time I see you. How could you do this knowing the danger you're in? I KNOW you saw the Slender Man when we were all in your apartment. You can't deny it. He was standing in freaking full view of the entire room like exploding with anger.
He's gone now. Yeah, he's coming after you you idiot. I don't care if you don't believe me. If you don't come back you're going to either die or be turned into a proxy. The only reason slendy wanted me was to get to you. Now I'm safe and the only thing he can do now is come after you. He's going to focus all of his energy on getting to you now. Before, at least, I could distract him. That isn't the case anymore. Aiden's house is a safe zone. He won't come near me there. You need to come here...please.
Slendy isn't finished with me yet, though. He's pissed that he was never able to break me. He's going to turn you into a proxy and use you to get to me, just like he originally planned to do except the other way around.
He doesn't like losing, Chas. Thanks to Aiden and Taben he almost lost us and he was so...enraged. He wanted to rip all of our heads off yesterday, I could tell.
Now he's got the perfect opportunity to get you. You're an idiot...
Please...please come home. I'm begging you. If you love me at all you will come home.
If you still have the will to live you will come home...
He's gone now. Yeah, he's coming after you you idiot. I don't care if you don't believe me. If you don't come back you're going to either die or be turned into a proxy. The only reason slendy wanted me was to get to you. Now I'm safe and the only thing he can do now is come after you. He's going to focus all of his energy on getting to you now. Before, at least, I could distract him. That isn't the case anymore. Aiden's house is a safe zone. He won't come near me there. You need to come here...please.
Slendy isn't finished with me yet, though. He's pissed that he was never able to break me. He's going to turn you into a proxy and use you to get to me, just like he originally planned to do except the other way around.
He doesn't like losing, Chas. Thanks to Aiden and Taben he almost lost us and he was so...enraged. He wanted to rip all of our heads off yesterday, I could tell.
Now he's got the perfect opportunity to get you. You're an idiot...
Please...please come home. I'm begging you. If you love me at all you will come home.
If you still have the will to live you will come home...
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Hitting the Road, Jack.
I'm not the person to be controlled.
I'm not the person to be humiliated.
I'm not the person to lose my grip.
I'm gone. I'm going to find answers. I will check in every now and then.
But for now...
I refuse to be tied in a chair by people who don't know me. You can't take me that easily.
I was a marine you idiots, I can get out of a slip not tie.
I am quite relieved
I'm here with Aiden and Taben at Chastin's place right now. I'm so relieved they're ok...and I feel awful for what Chastin tried to do. When I entered his loft place I think it caught Chastin off guard. He looked up at me with a confused, almost lost look on his face. He clearly had no idea what he was doing. Aiden and I were able to subdue him after that. As he says, Chas is tied up to a chair. God I feel horrible for doing that to him...he looked at me like what I was doing was the worst of betrayals as we were doing it.
But its the only way...he's on the brink of losing his mind and becoming a proxy.
Slendy's here but I don't think he'll do anything to Chas and I while Aiden's here, too. Wow though...he's...livid. I can feel it radiating off of him. I'm not sure if Aiden and Taben are noticing it, too. Maybe they're just ignoring it.
Thanks for helping us Aiden and Taben. I'm sorry you guys almost died due to my boyfriend's serious case of crazy.
But its the only way...he's on the brink of losing his mind and becoming a proxy.
Slendy's here but I don't think he'll do anything to Chas and I while Aiden's here, too. Wow though...he's...livid. I can feel it radiating off of him. I'm not sure if Aiden and Taben are noticing it, too. Maybe they're just ignoring it.
Thanks for helping us Aiden and Taben. I'm sorry you guys almost died due to my boyfriend's serious case of crazy.
I don't know what to do
Shit...Aiden's post...
They never did show up at my apartment. Now I know why I guess...
Chas, if you read this then please...please don't hurt them. They're just trying to help. God dammit...
I'll never be able to forgive myself if Aiden and Taben get hurt because of us...it isn't their fault Chastin is pretty much losing his mind right now and they shouldn't have to suffer for it.
Slendy...I don't know if you're monitoring our blog or something. I get the hunch that you check out what your victims are blogging about...Anyway, please...save Aiden and Taben. I don't care if we have to keep putting up with your shit, just don't let Chastin hurt them. Maybe I don't have to tell you and you're already going to save them, but I don't know what else to do.
I'm going over there, and if you haven't stopped this I'm going to rip your pale, blank head off you skinny son of a bitch.
They never did show up at my apartment. Now I know why I guess...
Chas, if you read this then please...please don't hurt them. They're just trying to help. God dammit...
I'll never be able to forgive myself if Aiden and Taben get hurt because of us...it isn't their fault Chastin is pretty much losing his mind right now and they shouldn't have to suffer for it.
Slendy...I don't know if you're monitoring our blog or something. I get the hunch that you check out what your victims are blogging about...Anyway, please...save Aiden and Taben. I don't care if we have to keep putting up with your shit, just don't let Chastin hurt them. Maybe I don't have to tell you and you're already going to save them, but I don't know what else to do.
I'm going over there, and if you haven't stopped this I'm going to rip your pale, blank head off you skinny son of a bitch.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Escape
Thank goodness...Slendy finally left. I actually got a good night's sleep for once! I feel so much better and I think I can keep holding out against slendderp for a little while longer. I can still feel slendy trying to get inside my head, but its not nearly as strong as it was the other day. I think its because of the distance between us.
Thanks Taben and Aiden for calling him away! You are awesome. I hope slendy doesn't realize you guys are trying to help his "prey"....I don't want you guys to get in trouble for our sake.
Its a relief to be alone. As soon as he left, I waited for about an hour to see if he would come back but he never did. I looked out into the hallway outside the apartment and he wasn't there either. So, I grabbed my stuff and booked it to the car. Yeah, I did get the car fixed btw. I guess I forgot to mention that. Anyway, I'm sure you can all guess where I went. This is the first time in a long time I've been able to leave the house and Chas seems to be in a lot of trouble. I drove straight to his new loft place.
When I got there, I looked cautiously around outside the car and, to my relief, there was no sign of the Slender Man anywhere. I dashed up the stairs and went into the building, hoping slendy would stay away. I found Chas' apartment and banged on the door. When no one answered, I tried opening it and, thankfully, it was unlocked.
The place is a mess...there are bullet holes everywhere just like Chas said in his last post. I had been hoping slendy had just been screwing with his head and that everything Chas described had been an illusion, but that isn't the case. It was terrifying to say the least...Chas is lucky he isn't dead.
I found him lying on the couch. I screamed and started crying, to be honest. I had been so worried about him that it all kind of rushed out of me in a flood when I saw him. He looked terrible...his hair was matted and there was blood it in, along with another trickle of it running down his face from his hairline.
The bandages that usually cover the shoulder slendy messed up awhile ago were off, exposing a very raw looking wound. His shoulder should at least be a little better by now...but it looked like it had only just been hurt. Parts of it were still blackened and burnt while others were blistered terribly. To make matters worse, the tentacle mark I remember slendy giving him that runs all down his arm looked worse in places. It had faded not even a day after slendy first attacked Chastin, but now its back and there's a ton of scarring along it from his shoulder to his elbow. The rest from his elbow to his hand is blistered.
His hands were...covered in dried blood. I think it was his own though. There was a bullet wound in his leg and it looked like he did a very botched job trying to take care of it. He had wrapped it in a bandage and, since there was hydrogen peroxide and some bloody cloths on the table next to him, he had tried to clean it, too.
Thankfully, it looked like he had only just gotten the wound not an hour before or else he would've bled to death. I sat him up as best I could and took the bandages off the wound in his leg. I tore off Chastin's dirty, bloodstained clothes and did my best to clean up the bullet hole and bandaged it tightly. Then, I put him in clean clothes and cleaned the blood out of his hair and off of his face.
As I was fixing him up, however, Chastin woke up suddenly and cried out. He grabbed my hand as I was washing his face and glared at me angrily.
Me: "Chastin! Thank God you're ok!"
I tried to hug him but he pushed me back violently. The angry, crazed glare never left his eyes.
Chas: "What the fuck are you doing here?!"
Me: "I...came to help you. I was so worried."
Chas: "I don't need your help. I left for a reason."
Me: "Look at you! You're going to kill yourself if you don't let me back into your life! I know you don't believe me when I say we're both in danger but please, I need you to trust me."
Chas: "Oh, more of your Slender Man shit again? I told you already. HE. ISN'T. REAL. This doesn't concern you and you're making it worse with your stupid delusions."
Me: "Chas, please. I'm not asking you to believe me. I'm asking you to trust me like you used to and come home with me. I want to help you..."
Chas: "I'm not going back until I fix this." He shakily stood up.
Me: "Chas, wait, you can't be standing yet. You're really hurt! We need to go to the hospital now or you're either going to bleed to death or die from infection."
Chas: "Get out." He pointed to the door.
Me: "But..."
Chas: "GET. OUT." He started yelling at that point. His eyes took on a crazed, cruel light that I had never seen in him before and that I never want to see ever again. He picked up a gun that had been next to him on the couch and pointed it at me.
Me: "Fine. I'll go. We'll see how willing you are to listen to reason when Aiden and Taben come to save us. Then you'll see that I'm right." I turned on my heel and left the apartment, tears streaming down my face.
God dammit...please hurry Aiden and Taben.
Thanks Taben and Aiden for calling him away! You are awesome. I hope slendy doesn't realize you guys are trying to help his "prey"....I don't want you guys to get in trouble for our sake.
Its a relief to be alone. As soon as he left, I waited for about an hour to see if he would come back but he never did. I looked out into the hallway outside the apartment and he wasn't there either. So, I grabbed my stuff and booked it to the car. Yeah, I did get the car fixed btw. I guess I forgot to mention that. Anyway, I'm sure you can all guess where I went. This is the first time in a long time I've been able to leave the house and Chas seems to be in a lot of trouble. I drove straight to his new loft place.
When I got there, I looked cautiously around outside the car and, to my relief, there was no sign of the Slender Man anywhere. I dashed up the stairs and went into the building, hoping slendy would stay away. I found Chas' apartment and banged on the door. When no one answered, I tried opening it and, thankfully, it was unlocked.
The place is a mess...there are bullet holes everywhere just like Chas said in his last post. I had been hoping slendy had just been screwing with his head and that everything Chas described had been an illusion, but that isn't the case. It was terrifying to say the least...Chas is lucky he isn't dead.
I found him lying on the couch. I screamed and started crying, to be honest. I had been so worried about him that it all kind of rushed out of me in a flood when I saw him. He looked terrible...his hair was matted and there was blood it in, along with another trickle of it running down his face from his hairline.
The bandages that usually cover the shoulder slendy messed up awhile ago were off, exposing a very raw looking wound. His shoulder should at least be a little better by now...but it looked like it had only just been hurt. Parts of it were still blackened and burnt while others were blistered terribly. To make matters worse, the tentacle mark I remember slendy giving him that runs all down his arm looked worse in places. It had faded not even a day after slendy first attacked Chastin, but now its back and there's a ton of scarring along it from his shoulder to his elbow. The rest from his elbow to his hand is blistered.
His hands were...covered in dried blood. I think it was his own though. There was a bullet wound in his leg and it looked like he did a very botched job trying to take care of it. He had wrapped it in a bandage and, since there was hydrogen peroxide and some bloody cloths on the table next to him, he had tried to clean it, too.
Thankfully, it looked like he had only just gotten the wound not an hour before or else he would've bled to death. I sat him up as best I could and took the bandages off the wound in his leg. I tore off Chastin's dirty, bloodstained clothes and did my best to clean up the bullet hole and bandaged it tightly. Then, I put him in clean clothes and cleaned the blood out of his hair and off of his face.
As I was fixing him up, however, Chastin woke up suddenly and cried out. He grabbed my hand as I was washing his face and glared at me angrily.
Me: "Chastin! Thank God you're ok!"
I tried to hug him but he pushed me back violently. The angry, crazed glare never left his eyes.
Chas: "What the fuck are you doing here?!"
Me: "I...came to help you. I was so worried."
Chas: "I don't need your help. I left for a reason."
Me: "Look at you! You're going to kill yourself if you don't let me back into your life! I know you don't believe me when I say we're both in danger but please, I need you to trust me."
Chas: "Oh, more of your Slender Man shit again? I told you already. HE. ISN'T. REAL. This doesn't concern you and you're making it worse with your stupid delusions."
Me: "Chas, please. I'm not asking you to believe me. I'm asking you to trust me like you used to and come home with me. I want to help you..."
Chas: "I'm not going back until I fix this." He shakily stood up.
Me: "Chas, wait, you can't be standing yet. You're really hurt! We need to go to the hospital now or you're either going to bleed to death or die from infection."
Chas: "Get out." He pointed to the door.
Me: "But..."
Chas: "GET. OUT." He started yelling at that point. His eyes took on a crazed, cruel light that I had never seen in him before and that I never want to see ever again. He picked up a gun that had been next to him on the couch and pointed it at me.
Me: "Fine. I'll go. We'll see how willing you are to listen to reason when Aiden and Taben come to save us. Then you'll see that I'm right." I turned on my heel and left the apartment, tears streaming down my face.
God dammit...please hurry Aiden and Taben.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Memories
Wow...I was rereading our past posts and I realized how much things have changed in the course of only a month and a half. Its all thanks to Slender Man. That bastard ripped our lives apart so easily and now I feel like there's no going back...
Aiden and Taben, you guys are my heroes. Thank you for even considering to come help us out...if this all works out I'll never be able to repay you for your kindness. Maybe things can go back to the way they were between Chas and I if we can get away from slendderp for awhile.
But, we can't live at Aiden and Taben's house forever. We're going to have to find a way to deal with this. Since Aiden's house is a safe zone of sorts, maybe I can actually get slendy to rationally work this out with me. Unlikely though....
I can see now that I've been an idiot. How could I have ever thought slendy would show us mercy? I said myself that he was created by us to murder and scare. So that's what he is. A murderous monster that is fear incarnate. He doesn't understand love or friendship. He protects certain people out of a curiosity and nothing more. I used to think he actually cared about Sandra, for example, but I guess she's right. He just wants to know why she's immune to his evil.
I'm so idealistic, aren't I? I need to see things for how they really are. I think that's what slendy meant during our last conversation when he said that thing about the truths of the world being cruel and brutal things and how I'm not ready to know them yet. He means that I was trying to see a goodness in him that wasn't there. He was brought into our world to kill and that's all he's ever going to do. But, there are times when he does defy this rule. What is he then? It isn't right to call him evil, especially when good and evil are, as he said, human constructs. They don't apply to him because he isn't of this world. He isn't human. How can we put a label on his nature then? Its so alien to us that we are forced to make it in terms of things we understand, hence the good and evil thing. But, he isn't either of those things. He's something else altogether. Something we can never comprehend.
I don't know what else to do...I hate myself for even thinking the Slender Man could be good. But...then I think of him and how he acts around Allen...isn't the way he treats that kid good?
I guess I'm just grasping at things I'll never be able to understand. I've seen his true nature and its horrifying.
This brings me to wonder how he'll react when we go to Aiden and Taben's place. He wants Chastin. Taking us into that safe zone is going to piss slendderp off to no end thats for certain...what if he hurts one of our new friends because they'll have taken his prey away from him?
If there's one thing I've learned about the Slender Man from this experience its that, above all else, he's completely childish. He hates losing. He can't stand having his toys taken away from him and he'll throw a tantrum if it happens. A murderous tantrum that amounts to a killing spree. Yay...
Ugh...I hate thinking about all of this. I know I'll never be able to fully comprehend slendy...he's just too different.
Oh! He's not standing at the end of the hallway anymore! I think he realized that I can't live on stale oreos that I found under the bed. He's in the corner of the living room. Good.
As long as he's here I can be assured that Chastin is safe.
Aiden and Taben, you guys are my heroes. Thank you for even considering to come help us out...if this all works out I'll never be able to repay you for your kindness. Maybe things can go back to the way they were between Chas and I if we can get away from slendderp for awhile.
But, we can't live at Aiden and Taben's house forever. We're going to have to find a way to deal with this. Since Aiden's house is a safe zone of sorts, maybe I can actually get slendy to rationally work this out with me. Unlikely though....
I can see now that I've been an idiot. How could I have ever thought slendy would show us mercy? I said myself that he was created by us to murder and scare. So that's what he is. A murderous monster that is fear incarnate. He doesn't understand love or friendship. He protects certain people out of a curiosity and nothing more. I used to think he actually cared about Sandra, for example, but I guess she's right. He just wants to know why she's immune to his evil.
I'm so idealistic, aren't I? I need to see things for how they really are. I think that's what slendy meant during our last conversation when he said that thing about the truths of the world being cruel and brutal things and how I'm not ready to know them yet. He means that I was trying to see a goodness in him that wasn't there. He was brought into our world to kill and that's all he's ever going to do. But, there are times when he does defy this rule. What is he then? It isn't right to call him evil, especially when good and evil are, as he said, human constructs. They don't apply to him because he isn't of this world. He isn't human. How can we put a label on his nature then? Its so alien to us that we are forced to make it in terms of things we understand, hence the good and evil thing. But, he isn't either of those things. He's something else altogether. Something we can never comprehend.
I don't know what else to do...I hate myself for even thinking the Slender Man could be good. But...then I think of him and how he acts around Allen...isn't the way he treats that kid good?
I guess I'm just grasping at things I'll never be able to understand. I've seen his true nature and its horrifying.
This brings me to wonder how he'll react when we go to Aiden and Taben's place. He wants Chastin. Taking us into that safe zone is going to piss slendderp off to no end thats for certain...what if he hurts one of our new friends because they'll have taken his prey away from him?
If there's one thing I've learned about the Slender Man from this experience its that, above all else, he's completely childish. He hates losing. He can't stand having his toys taken away from him and he'll throw a tantrum if it happens. A murderous tantrum that amounts to a killing spree. Yay...
Ugh...I hate thinking about all of this. I know I'll never be able to fully comprehend slendy...he's just too different.
Oh! He's not standing at the end of the hallway anymore! I think he realized that I can't live on stale oreos that I found under the bed. He's in the corner of the living room. Good.
As long as he's here I can be assured that Chastin is safe.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Over the edge
I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. I haven't slept at all in the last few days. It feels like there are fingers grabbing at my brain. Its so...invasive. Its worse than feeling like something was tugging on me. It feels like something is rummaging around in my thoughts. Slender Man is looking for somewhere in my mind that he can use to get to me with. If he finds even one crack in my defense that he can slither into, I'm dead. There won't be Malkin, just some mindless proxy. I'm doing everything I can to keep him out. Not sleeping seems to be the only surefire way to repel him, as evidenced by me ending up with a knife in my leg the last time I actually got a good night's sleep.
My leg is fine, by the way. The knife didn't go in too deeply and the wound isn't bleeding too much. The leg is the least of my problems, though. I refuse to go outside my room. Each time I do, slendy is standing at the end of the hallway that leads to our living room. I tried walking toward him once, thinking he'd leave, but he didn't budge at all. I even ran at him, but all I did was crash into his torso and wake up a few minutes later in bed.
He knows I'm going to go try and help Chastin. He doesn't want me to do that, however, until he's found a way to break me. So, he won't let me leave. Its so simple...
Chastin is losing his memory, one of the big warning signs of someone transforming into a proxy. I'm only barely holding out from becoming one, too. God dammit, I can't keep doing this....I just want this to all be a nightmare.
Please....let us go.
My leg is fine, by the way. The knife didn't go in too deeply and the wound isn't bleeding too much. The leg is the least of my problems, though. I refuse to go outside my room. Each time I do, slendy is standing at the end of the hallway that leads to our living room. I tried walking toward him once, thinking he'd leave, but he didn't budge at all. I even ran at him, but all I did was crash into his torso and wake up a few minutes later in bed.
He knows I'm going to go try and help Chastin. He doesn't want me to do that, however, until he's found a way to break me. So, he won't let me leave. Its so simple...
Chastin is losing his memory, one of the big warning signs of someone transforming into a proxy. I'm only barely holding out from becoming one, too. God dammit, I can't keep doing this....I just want this to all be a nightmare.
Please....let us go.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Eyes Open
I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm so fucking tired.
I haven't been sleeping, but I'm losing memory from minuets to days. I have no idea what's going on. I don't know where I am usually...
I'm usually in a mess, cuts, bruises, I look awful.
My loft is decorated in bullet holes from god knows what. I just remember finding the gun broken on the floor.
I've been pulling my hair, banging my head against walls trying to regain my memory. But all of it is fuzzy.
I'm going mad.
I tried talking to my Doctor, well let's say he tried to sign me up for the insane asylum.
I'm not going there, not ever. I'm not going crazy, just mad. I still have some control. Just not of everything
I hate it
I'm so fucking tired!
I can't get my eyes to stay closed it's like I have to be alert and I don't know why.
I refuse to believe all this shinanigans is Slendy's fault.
HE IS NOT REAL. He's just a figment of my imagination to cope with reasonings why I can't figure out things in my past, a childish reason to explain my actions lately.
I threw out the gun, it's gone. I burned Kyle's books and stupid shit. I didn't need it. I don't need to know why he went crazy.
And one thing I know for certain. I did not kill Kyle. He was my brother...
Why would I ever kill someone I love...
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
This isn't good...
Fuff...this is really bad (fuff is, btw, my replacement for the word fuck). I woke up this morning at like 5 am with a knife in my leg. Yeah...its as bad as it sounds. It was strange...I just suddenly became lucid out of nowhere and I was sitting on my couch with a knife protruding from my left leg and blood running down to the floor. I was in shock to the point where I didn't even freak out. All I could do was sit there and stare at it, not knowing what to do. Thankfully, it wasn't in that deep. It still hurt like a bitch though. I think the pain is what snapped me out of whatever delirium I was in prior to that...
I remember going to bed the night before. I had taken sleeping pills because waking up every few hours to slendderp being creepy in the dark was getting unbearable. I slept like a log...but now I'm realizing that that isn't a good thing. I realize now that waking up randomly was the only thing keeping slendy from getting inside my head. It was a defense mechanism. I can see now why slendy thinks my will is too strong for him to easily penetrate.
I think I stabbed myself while I was in crazy sleepwalking proxy mode to bring myself out of his influence.
God, unconscious me has some serious balls.
Anyway, there's no way in hell I'm taking sleep meds again. I'm just going to have to deal with not getting my beauty sleep until Chastin gets a grip on his priorities. As an extra precaution I've decided I'm going to start tying one of my legs down to the bed post.
Slender Man, if you want me you're going to have to try a lot harder than that. I'm not going down without a fight, sir.
Oh! He just appeared in the corner. Oh dear...he's...really pissed off...he's talking to me.
Slender Man: Do not test me, impetuous child.
Me: I'm not. Its called survival instincts. Besides, I'm still pissed about the shower incident the other day.
S: Why do you resist? Why do you fight the inevitable?
Me: I will never hurt Chastin. I'll never let you take me. I know you can comprehend at least some human emotion from hanging out around Sandra and Aiden, so maybe you should consider the feelings driving my actions before you accuse me of being "impetuous" and go on a murderous rampage. I'm doing this for him.
S: Humanity is an enigma even to me.
Me: If you can feel curiosity you must be capable of feeling other emotions.
S: Perhaps. I need not explain to you. You are not like the others.
Me: I think I like bestial you better. Bestial slendy, at least has no control over his actions. He doesn't choose to murder. You, on the other hand, are the omnipresent slendy. You have a choice. Maybe I was wrong about you.
S: What you think of me is irrelevant. There is no tangible reason for my existence. I simply am. Good and evil are human constructs. They have little meaning in my higher plane of existence. Only I know the truths of this world. They are cruel and brutal things, you are not yet ready to know them, to know me.
I open my mouth to speak but he interrupts me.
S: However, be assured that I always keep my word. I have promised to break you and so you must not doubt this. Fighting only leaves you a tortured shell of a human in the end. Good day.
Slendy disappeared. Good riddance.
Aiden, it'd be awesome if you could like...yell at him a little bit for me.
I remember going to bed the night before. I had taken sleeping pills because waking up every few hours to slendderp being creepy in the dark was getting unbearable. I slept like a log...but now I'm realizing that that isn't a good thing. I realize now that waking up randomly was the only thing keeping slendy from getting inside my head. It was a defense mechanism. I can see now why slendy thinks my will is too strong for him to easily penetrate.
I think I stabbed myself while I was in crazy sleepwalking proxy mode to bring myself out of his influence.
God, unconscious me has some serious balls.
Anyway, there's no way in hell I'm taking sleep meds again. I'm just going to have to deal with not getting my beauty sleep until Chastin gets a grip on his priorities. As an extra precaution I've decided I'm going to start tying one of my legs down to the bed post.
Slender Man, if you want me you're going to have to try a lot harder than that. I'm not going down without a fight, sir.
Oh! He just appeared in the corner. Oh dear...he's...really pissed off...he's talking to me.
Slender Man: Do not test me, impetuous child.
Me: I'm not. Its called survival instincts. Besides, I'm still pissed about the shower incident the other day.
S: Why do you resist? Why do you fight the inevitable?
Me: I will never hurt Chastin. I'll never let you take me. I know you can comprehend at least some human emotion from hanging out around Sandra and Aiden, so maybe you should consider the feelings driving my actions before you accuse me of being "impetuous" and go on a murderous rampage. I'm doing this for him.
S: Humanity is an enigma even to me.
Me: If you can feel curiosity you must be capable of feeling other emotions.
S: Perhaps. I need not explain to you. You are not like the others.
Me: I think I like bestial you better. Bestial slendy, at least has no control over his actions. He doesn't choose to murder. You, on the other hand, are the omnipresent slendy. You have a choice. Maybe I was wrong about you.
S: What you think of me is irrelevant. There is no tangible reason for my existence. I simply am. Good and evil are human constructs. They have little meaning in my higher plane of existence. Only I know the truths of this world. They are cruel and brutal things, you are not yet ready to know them, to know me.
I open my mouth to speak but he interrupts me.
S: However, be assured that I always keep my word. I have promised to break you and so you must not doubt this. Fighting only leaves you a tortured shell of a human in the end. Good day.
Slendy disappeared. Good riddance.
Aiden, it'd be awesome if you could like...yell at him a little bit for me.
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