Memories

Wow...I was rereading our past posts and I realized how much things have changed in the course of only a month and a half. Its all thanks to Slender Man. That bastard ripped our lives apart so easily and now I feel like there's no going back...

Aiden and Taben, you guys are my heroes. Thank you for even considering to come help us out...if this all works  out I'll never be able to repay you for your kindness. Maybe things can go back to the way they were between Chas and I if we can get away from slendderp for awhile.

But, we can't live at Aiden and Taben's house forever. We're going to have to find a way to deal with this. Since Aiden's house is a safe zone of sorts, maybe I can actually get slendy to rationally work this out with me. Unlikely though....

I can see now that I've been an idiot. How could I have ever thought slendy would show us mercy? I said myself that he was created by us to murder and scare. So that's what he is. A murderous monster that is fear incarnate. He doesn't understand love or friendship. He protects certain people out of a curiosity and nothing more. I used to think he actually cared about Sandra, for example, but I guess she's right. He just wants to know why she's immune to his evil.

I'm so idealistic, aren't I? I need to see things for how they really are. I think that's what slendy meant during our last conversation when he said that thing about the truths of the world being cruel and brutal things and how I'm not ready to know them yet. He means that I was trying to see a goodness in him that wasn't there. He was brought into our world to kill and that's all he's ever going to do. But, there are times when he does defy this rule. What is he then? It isn't right to call him evil, especially when good and evil are, as he said, human constructs. They don't apply to him because he isn't of this world. He isn't human. How can we put a label on his nature then? Its so alien to us that we are forced to make it in terms of things we understand, hence the good and evil thing. But, he isn't either of those things. He's something else altogether. Something we can never comprehend.

I don't know what else to do...I hate myself for even thinking the Slender Man could be good. But...then I think of him and how he acts around Allen...isn't the way he treats that kid good?

I guess I'm just grasping at things I'll never be able to understand. I've seen his true nature and its horrifying.

This brings me to wonder how he'll react when we go to Aiden and Taben's place. He wants Chastin. Taking us into that safe zone is going to piss slendderp off to no end thats for certain...what if he hurts one of our new friends because they'll have taken his prey away from him?

If there's one thing I've learned about the Slender Man from this experience its that, above all else, he's completely childish. He hates losing. He can't stand having his toys taken away from him and he'll throw a tantrum if it happens. A murderous tantrum that amounts to a killing spree. Yay...

Ugh...I hate thinking about all of this. I know I'll never be able to fully comprehend slendy...he's just too different.

Oh! He's not standing at the end of the hallway anymore! I think he realized that I can't live on stale oreos that I found under the bed. He's in the corner of the living room. Good.

As long as he's here I can be assured that Chastin is safe.