Hey there, internet. Sorry for the brief lack of posting. I'm fine, Aiden's fine, Brandy's fine, things are all fine here.
At least, they are on the surface. I found some...disturbing things on Chastin's computer a few days ago and I've been trying to wrap my head around it all. Essentially, it was a record of his descent into madness during the period of time between Slender Man actually getting to him and him trying to kill us last week.
As far as I can tell, he'd been desperately fighting back all that time and his mind just snapped when Slender Man broke His word and commanded him to kill me. The text he sent me after running away was likely just a brief moment of clarity. For all I know, he's probably a raving lunatic at this very moment, and that disturbs me very deeply.
I may or may not post what I've found. I need time to think about this.
On another note, it's been a nightmare trying to clean up the blood and Slender substance from the carpet. Let's agree to never have proxies over ever again if we can help it.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
We just can't seem to get a break
Hi guys, sorry for the random lack of posting. I've just been...distracted lately. That and typing is horrible when I only have one good hand and the three fingers left on the other hand only move a little. I would have put this post off until Aiden could type it for me, but a lot of distressing things have happened in the last 12 hours that need to be mentioned.
If you read this, then you know some serious shit went down this morning during breakfast. Chastin and I were sitting in the living room watching TV. I was spacing out. There were a lot of things I wanted to say to him...I wanted to tell him that I was afraid for him. I wanted to tell him about the suspicions Ai and I had been having.
Suddenly, Chastin started shivering and twitching. He doubled over with his head in his hands and his shaking became increasingly more violent. He fell to the floor and black ooze began dripping out of his nose and ears. I screamed, Brandy mentioned that. What she didn't say was that Chastin started shouting at nothing. I bent over him and tried to sit him up, but he pushed me away violently, yelling at me to stay away from him. Most of his words after that were incoherent.
Aiden rushed into the room, a terrified Brandy at his heels. Chastin was beginning to calm down at that point, but Aiden caught me as I tried to go to help him and held me back, glaring. Chastin struggled to his knees, pain still distorting his face, stared pointedly above our heads, and cried out words that I know will disturb me for a very long time...
"Bastard, you swore to me you would spare him! You gave me your word! You can't make me kill him, I'll die fighting you if I have to!" He doubled over again, ooze pouring down the sides of his head and down his mouth and chin, and began letting out choked, wheezing coughs. I felt a tentacle wrap itself around my neck. Before any of us could react, I was thrown against the wall on the other side of where Chastin was kneeling. Aiden cried out and attempted to run to my side, but Slender Man disappeared from behind him and rematerialized between him and Chastin, blocking his path. I crawled to Chastin, hoping that he had managed to fight off Slender Man's influence. He snarled at me when I touched him on his shoulder and knocked me onto my back, pulling a knife from his belt and holding it to my throat. His eyes were crazed and he stank of rotten flesh and blood.
"Chastin, please..." I begged, giving him an imploring look. "Don't you remember who I am?" His face became troubled and his hand holding the knife began shaking. His head twitched and a vein throbbed in his forehead. He clenched his hands and grimaced at the effort he was making to regain control. It seemed like he was going to win. I had hope in those few moments that everything would be alright, but these hopes were dashed almost immediately. Chastin's body relaxed, his shoulders slumping and his head falling forward. He let out a low, guttural laugh and pressed the knife back into my skin. With his other hand, he ripped off the bandages covering my injured arm and dug his nails into the ruined flesh, causing me to cry out in agony.
This must have been what set Aiden off. I heard a wild, raw yell from across the room and heard a muted thump that was followed by another cry of pain. Aiden had stabbed Slender Man in the shoulder and had somehow gotten hurt in the process. Chastin was off of me and on him almost instantly, snarling cruelly and ready to kill in retribution for the attack on his master. He slashed Aiden across the chest with his knife but, before he could strike a killing blow, I mustered up all the strength I had left in me and tackled him, punching him hard in the face and breaking his nose.
Chastin howled in pain, holding his nose as blood and Slender substance poured out of it. He pushed me off of him with his other arm, struggled to his feet, and dashed out the door.
Slender Man merely watching him go, tilted his head, and then vanished.
I drove Aiden to the hospital. The stab wound in his shoulder wasn't too deep and neither was the cut on his chest, so they're only keeping him overnight. As for me, they re-did the bandages on my arm and sent me home once visiting hours were over.
The last thing I heard from Chastin was a text message from him apologizing for losing his head. He told me not to worry about him. He told me that he couldn't fight off Slender Man's influence any longer and that, if I get the chance, he wants me to kill him so he won't hurt me or anyone else. He told me he'd known about how I feel for Aiden for awhile and that I shouldn't let myself dwell on what happened or blame myself.
I'm sorry Ai...you were right that whole time and I didn't want to listen. I wanted to believe that, even if he were a proxy, he could fight it off. I was wrong, and it almost killed us. I hope you can forgive me...I didn't even have the courage to say this to your face when I was with you in the hospital because I felt so bad...
Chastin saved my life and I couldn't do a thing to help him in his hour of need. I don't know what to do...I just...need to come to terms with what's happened. I wish Aiden were here...I really need a shoulder to cry on right now.
That and I don't know what to do about poor Brandy...she's absolutely terrified and I'm no help right now, what with me drowning in misery and guilt.
Things are going to be difficult in the coming months. Chastin won't have a choice but to keep trying to hurt us. He's going to slip even further into madness as time passes and I won't be able to save him.
There were other things I wanted to say, but they aren't important right now. I need to do something that will make both myself and Brandy feel better.
Aiden, I can't wait until you're home. Chastin, if you read this, please hold on for as long as you can...
If you read this, then you know some serious shit went down this morning during breakfast. Chastin and I were sitting in the living room watching TV. I was spacing out. There were a lot of things I wanted to say to him...I wanted to tell him that I was afraid for him. I wanted to tell him about the suspicions Ai and I had been having.
Suddenly, Chastin started shivering and twitching. He doubled over with his head in his hands and his shaking became increasingly more violent. He fell to the floor and black ooze began dripping out of his nose and ears. I screamed, Brandy mentioned that. What she didn't say was that Chastin started shouting at nothing. I bent over him and tried to sit him up, but he pushed me away violently, yelling at me to stay away from him. Most of his words after that were incoherent.
Aiden rushed into the room, a terrified Brandy at his heels. Chastin was beginning to calm down at that point, but Aiden caught me as I tried to go to help him and held me back, glaring. Chastin struggled to his knees, pain still distorting his face, stared pointedly above our heads, and cried out words that I know will disturb me for a very long time...
"Bastard, you swore to me you would spare him! You gave me your word! You can't make me kill him, I'll die fighting you if I have to!" He doubled over again, ooze pouring down the sides of his head and down his mouth and chin, and began letting out choked, wheezing coughs. I felt a tentacle wrap itself around my neck. Before any of us could react, I was thrown against the wall on the other side of where Chastin was kneeling. Aiden cried out and attempted to run to my side, but Slender Man disappeared from behind him and rematerialized between him and Chastin, blocking his path. I crawled to Chastin, hoping that he had managed to fight off Slender Man's influence. He snarled at me when I touched him on his shoulder and knocked me onto my back, pulling a knife from his belt and holding it to my throat. His eyes were crazed and he stank of rotten flesh and blood.
"Chastin, please..." I begged, giving him an imploring look. "Don't you remember who I am?" His face became troubled and his hand holding the knife began shaking. His head twitched and a vein throbbed in his forehead. He clenched his hands and grimaced at the effort he was making to regain control. It seemed like he was going to win. I had hope in those few moments that everything would be alright, but these hopes were dashed almost immediately. Chastin's body relaxed, his shoulders slumping and his head falling forward. He let out a low, guttural laugh and pressed the knife back into my skin. With his other hand, he ripped off the bandages covering my injured arm and dug his nails into the ruined flesh, causing me to cry out in agony.
This must have been what set Aiden off. I heard a wild, raw yell from across the room and heard a muted thump that was followed by another cry of pain. Aiden had stabbed Slender Man in the shoulder and had somehow gotten hurt in the process. Chastin was off of me and on him almost instantly, snarling cruelly and ready to kill in retribution for the attack on his master. He slashed Aiden across the chest with his knife but, before he could strike a killing blow, I mustered up all the strength I had left in me and tackled him, punching him hard in the face and breaking his nose.
Chastin howled in pain, holding his nose as blood and Slender substance poured out of it. He pushed me off of him with his other arm, struggled to his feet, and dashed out the door.
Slender Man merely watching him go, tilted his head, and then vanished.
I drove Aiden to the hospital. The stab wound in his shoulder wasn't too deep and neither was the cut on his chest, so they're only keeping him overnight. As for me, they re-did the bandages on my arm and sent me home once visiting hours were over.
The last thing I heard from Chastin was a text message from him apologizing for losing his head. He told me not to worry about him. He told me that he couldn't fight off Slender Man's influence any longer and that, if I get the chance, he wants me to kill him so he won't hurt me or anyone else. He told me he'd known about how I feel for Aiden for awhile and that I shouldn't let myself dwell on what happened or blame myself.
I'm sorry Ai...you were right that whole time and I didn't want to listen. I wanted to believe that, even if he were a proxy, he could fight it off. I was wrong, and it almost killed us. I hope you can forgive me...I didn't even have the courage to say this to your face when I was with you in the hospital because I felt so bad...
Chastin saved my life and I couldn't do a thing to help him in his hour of need. I don't know what to do...I just...need to come to terms with what's happened. I wish Aiden were here...I really need a shoulder to cry on right now.
That and I don't know what to do about poor Brandy...she's absolutely terrified and I'm no help right now, what with me drowning in misery and guilt.
Things are going to be difficult in the coming months. Chastin won't have a choice but to keep trying to hurt us. He's going to slip even further into madness as time passes and I won't be able to save him.
There were other things I wanted to say, but they aren't important right now. I need to do something that will make both myself and Brandy feel better.
Aiden, I can't wait until you're home. Chastin, if you read this, please hold on for as long as you can...
Friday, September 9, 2011
On our way and taking a second to make an important point
Just a small update. I called Aiden this morning and we're about to be on our way to his apartment. I know it's kind of sudden, but I don't want him to have to be alone. Besides, Chas has work and someone has to be able to look after me now that my arm is a bloody hunk of meat.
Before I go, however, I'd like to talk about something important.
I know Aiden thinks Chastin is a proxy, but there just isn't enough evidence to support that right now. I probably didn't make it clear, but Chas' wounds from Saturday are still there. They weren't major enough for him to be stuck in a hospital bed like I was and the doctors told me that he insisted he be allowed to stay with me while I was passed out even though he was hurt too.
However, Aiden's right in that I can't just ignore the fact that, somehow, we escaped from what was certain death and that Chastin refuses to tell me how. Essentially, I don't know what to think and all we can really do is watch and wait.
Secondly, Aiden, I don't have everything mixed up, not anymore. Yesterday I really couldn't wrap my mind fully around what happened to KK and Derek. It was just too soon. I've had time to think about everything now, and I've come to the conclusion that I wanted to believe he was a proxy. I'm sorry if that upsets you Aiden, but, when people I know and care about do bad things, I'm the kind of person that tends to try to find good reasons for why they did it whether there actually is a good reason or not.
I hope that makes sense. Hell, I did this with you when you attacked me last month and I'm still convinced that you had a good reason for doing what you did. I wanted to believe that KK had a good reason for what she did, and I was wrong this time. I wanted to believe that she hadn't really lost it even though all the proof I needed was right in front of me. I'm sorry...I know it was stupid of me to try to kid myself like that...I just can't help it. It's one of my defense mechanisms for when bad things happen.
So there, now I've revealed one of the flaws in my judgement and character to make sure no one hates me. I suppose it wasn't obvious that I was trying to force myself to believe that KK had a reason to try to kill Derek in my last post. I didn't even realize I was doing it to myself. Looking back now, I can see what I was trying to do and I understand that I upset Aiden because of it.
I'm sorry, Ai. I promise my judgement isn't clouded by my silly delusions anymore.
Now, we depart. It'll be nice not living in hotel rooms anymore. These places have always made me feel...I dunno...off.
Before I go, however, I'd like to talk about something important.
I know Aiden thinks Chastin is a proxy, but there just isn't enough evidence to support that right now. I probably didn't make it clear, but Chas' wounds from Saturday are still there. They weren't major enough for him to be stuck in a hospital bed like I was and the doctors told me that he insisted he be allowed to stay with me while I was passed out even though he was hurt too.
However, Aiden's right in that I can't just ignore the fact that, somehow, we escaped from what was certain death and that Chastin refuses to tell me how. Essentially, I don't know what to think and all we can really do is watch and wait.
Secondly, Aiden, I don't have everything mixed up, not anymore. Yesterday I really couldn't wrap my mind fully around what happened to KK and Derek. It was just too soon. I've had time to think about everything now, and I've come to the conclusion that I wanted to believe he was a proxy. I'm sorry if that upsets you Aiden, but, when people I know and care about do bad things, I'm the kind of person that tends to try to find good reasons for why they did it whether there actually is a good reason or not.
I hope that makes sense. Hell, I did this with you when you attacked me last month and I'm still convinced that you had a good reason for doing what you did. I wanted to believe that KK had a good reason for what she did, and I was wrong this time. I wanted to believe that she hadn't really lost it even though all the proof I needed was right in front of me. I'm sorry...I know it was stupid of me to try to kid myself like that...I just can't help it. It's one of my defense mechanisms for when bad things happen.
So there, now I've revealed one of the flaws in my judgement and character to make sure no one hates me. I suppose it wasn't obvious that I was trying to force myself to believe that KK had a reason to try to kill Derek in my last post. I didn't even realize I was doing it to myself. Looking back now, I can see what I was trying to do and I understand that I upset Aiden because of it.
I'm sorry, Ai. I promise my judgement isn't clouded by my silly delusions anymore.
Now, we depart. It'll be nice not living in hotel rooms anymore. These places have always made me feel...I dunno...off.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Catastrophe
It happened Saturday in the evening. I mentioned awhile ago that I've had this constant paranoia ever since we got here. Well, it was at its worst that day. I didn't want to be alone, but Chastin had to go to work and Aiden was busy taking care of KK. So, I made Chastin promise that he would wait at his work for me to get there so he wouldn't be walking alone at night and, thankfully, he listened to me. (Looking back, I can't decide whether it was a good thing I insisted I be with him or if everything would have been fine if I'd just ignored my paranoia and stayed in our hotel...)
It was dark by the time we finally started on our way back. I felt slightly more reassured that I would be safe while Chas was there, but I couldn't shake the niggling feeling that we were being followed. I turned around to check that no one was behind us every couple minutes and I was constantly on the look out for that ominous tall, pale shape in every alleyway we passed. Chas started to get annoyed by it and caught my arm as I turned back to check behind us for the umpteenth time. He looked at me sternly and told me that I needed to stop thinking about it, or something really would happen to us. He scolded me, saying that I know the rules for surviving better than he does and yet I was breaking them all and putting us in danger anyway by thinking about Him. It upset me that he wasn't taking my concerns seriously, but looking back I know now that he was right.
My only response was to glare at him angrily and wrench my arm away. I was about to step forward, when suddenly I felt someone grab me from behind and winced as the biting blade of a knife dug itself slightly into my throat. It was a guy, and the mask he was wearing dug into my shoulder. I knew instantly it was a proxy. I knew what was coming next. Slender Man appeared behind Chastin, who was too focused on finding a way to save me to notice. I tried to scream at him to run, but the proxy shoved a cloth into my mouth, cutting off my words. Chas must have realized what I was trying to tell him, because he turned around to face that evil, faceless ghoul. Before he could do anything, Slender Man sent a tentacle whipping towards him, hitting him in the stomach and sending him crashing against the building a few feet away. I could only watch helplessly as he calmly walked over to Chastin, wrapped his fingers around his throat, picked him up, and slammed him forcefully against the wall one more time.
I thought it was over. I thought Slender Man was going to kill him before my eyes and then kill me, but, to my great surprise, Slender Man dropped Chastin. He turned his pale head towards us and the proxy released me after a moment. At another wordless command from Slender Man, the proxy, along with another that came out of the alley next to the building, took hold of Chastin's arms and hoisted him to his feet. He was clearly on the verge of passing out, so the proxy that had held me slapped him hard across the face, forcing him back to his senses.
I was frozen on the spot. I had no idea what to do. I couldn't run, I couldn't leave Chastin there to die. But, I couldn't fend off our attackers either. All I could do was stay where I was, watching in horror and waiting for my turn.
The proxies continued to beat up Chastin while Slender Man watched with a sick, sadistic glee radiating off of him. Finally, Slender Man commanded them to stop. Chastin was bloody and bruised, but lucid. He'd managed to break free a few times and land a couple very painful looking blows on the proxies, but eventually they subdued him by slashing him on his chest and arms with the knife. He was still struggling, but much more weakly than he had been due to his injuries.
Slender Man turned to face me. I was angry and upset, so I rushed at him blindly and attempted to jump on him so I could get at his head. He caught me by the arm and threw me into one of the alley walls, taking care to ensure that Chastin would be able to see what he was going to do to me. I looked up at him, terrified out of my mind, and was greeted by that sickening smile. He wrapped his fingers around my throat, pinning me, and wrapped a tentacle around my pinky and ring fingers on my left hand. I heard a loud crunch and felt the skin tearing as white hot pain coursed through my body and blanked out my mind. When I finally came back to my senses, I realized I was screaming. It was a raw, primal scream. It didn't even begin to convey the agony I felt. Slender Man wasn't finished yet. He wrapped the same bloody tentacle around my forearm and wrenched it, ruining any healing the bone had already done and snapping it again a little higher above the original break. The tentacle burst into countless tiny tendrils, each of which coursed its way under my skin and into the muscle, tearing up everything they came into contact with.
I could hear myself screaming and crying. I could hear Chastin sobbing and yelling. None of it mattered. Every fiber of my being was focused on the pain and, eventually, I'm assuming it became too much. I passed out and woke up in the hospital with Chastin asleep in the chair next to me.
Chastin won't tell me how we escaped or why Slender Man let us go. All he said is that our injuries have been blamed on the proxies and that they've been apprehended.
I suppose I should have mentioned the fact that I was hospitalized in my last post, but I didn't want to upset Aiden after all he'd been dealing with at that point.
They released me this morning mostly because Chastin and I both insisted that we couldn't stay there. My arm is far from better and it won't be for a long time. Apparently, I'm extremely lucky they don't have to amputate it at my elbow since the tissue was so destroyed.
I'm really worried about what may have happened while I was passed out. Why did Slender Man spare us? Did he do something to Chastin? I don't know what to think...I hope things get better for us once we're with Aiden, but I'm worried that our presence will make Aiden a target too.
I don't know...I'm totally at a loss right now. We almost died and now I'm starting to suspect Slender Man finally got to Chas while I was out. I can't begin to think like this now...this is probably exactly what Slender Man wants. He probably knew I'd leap to the conclusion that he'd taken Chas to sow seeds of doubt in my heart and to drive me away from my allies. Not only does that leave me vulnerable but, if I'm wrong, it means Chastin will die. (Chas went to bed so I typed those last few paragraphs myself, by the way.)
Aiden...we'll be there soon. We both need some sort of comfort in these troubled times.
It was dark by the time we finally started on our way back. I felt slightly more reassured that I would be safe while Chas was there, but I couldn't shake the niggling feeling that we were being followed. I turned around to check that no one was behind us every couple minutes and I was constantly on the look out for that ominous tall, pale shape in every alleyway we passed. Chas started to get annoyed by it and caught my arm as I turned back to check behind us for the umpteenth time. He looked at me sternly and told me that I needed to stop thinking about it, or something really would happen to us. He scolded me, saying that I know the rules for surviving better than he does and yet I was breaking them all and putting us in danger anyway by thinking about Him. It upset me that he wasn't taking my concerns seriously, but looking back I know now that he was right.
My only response was to glare at him angrily and wrench my arm away. I was about to step forward, when suddenly I felt someone grab me from behind and winced as the biting blade of a knife dug itself slightly into my throat. It was a guy, and the mask he was wearing dug into my shoulder. I knew instantly it was a proxy. I knew what was coming next. Slender Man appeared behind Chastin, who was too focused on finding a way to save me to notice. I tried to scream at him to run, but the proxy shoved a cloth into my mouth, cutting off my words. Chas must have realized what I was trying to tell him, because he turned around to face that evil, faceless ghoul. Before he could do anything, Slender Man sent a tentacle whipping towards him, hitting him in the stomach and sending him crashing against the building a few feet away. I could only watch helplessly as he calmly walked over to Chastin, wrapped his fingers around his throat, picked him up, and slammed him forcefully against the wall one more time.
I thought it was over. I thought Slender Man was going to kill him before my eyes and then kill me, but, to my great surprise, Slender Man dropped Chastin. He turned his pale head towards us and the proxy released me after a moment. At another wordless command from Slender Man, the proxy, along with another that came out of the alley next to the building, took hold of Chastin's arms and hoisted him to his feet. He was clearly on the verge of passing out, so the proxy that had held me slapped him hard across the face, forcing him back to his senses.
I was frozen on the spot. I had no idea what to do. I couldn't run, I couldn't leave Chastin there to die. But, I couldn't fend off our attackers either. All I could do was stay where I was, watching in horror and waiting for my turn.
The proxies continued to beat up Chastin while Slender Man watched with a sick, sadistic glee radiating off of him. Finally, Slender Man commanded them to stop. Chastin was bloody and bruised, but lucid. He'd managed to break free a few times and land a couple very painful looking blows on the proxies, but eventually they subdued him by slashing him on his chest and arms with the knife. He was still struggling, but much more weakly than he had been due to his injuries.
Slender Man turned to face me. I was angry and upset, so I rushed at him blindly and attempted to jump on him so I could get at his head. He caught me by the arm and threw me into one of the alley walls, taking care to ensure that Chastin would be able to see what he was going to do to me. I looked up at him, terrified out of my mind, and was greeted by that sickening smile. He wrapped his fingers around my throat, pinning me, and wrapped a tentacle around my pinky and ring fingers on my left hand. I heard a loud crunch and felt the skin tearing as white hot pain coursed through my body and blanked out my mind. When I finally came back to my senses, I realized I was screaming. It was a raw, primal scream. It didn't even begin to convey the agony I felt. Slender Man wasn't finished yet. He wrapped the same bloody tentacle around my forearm and wrenched it, ruining any healing the bone had already done and snapping it again a little higher above the original break. The tentacle burst into countless tiny tendrils, each of which coursed its way under my skin and into the muscle, tearing up everything they came into contact with.
I could hear myself screaming and crying. I could hear Chastin sobbing and yelling. None of it mattered. Every fiber of my being was focused on the pain and, eventually, I'm assuming it became too much. I passed out and woke up in the hospital with Chastin asleep in the chair next to me.
Chastin won't tell me how we escaped or why Slender Man let us go. All he said is that our injuries have been blamed on the proxies and that they've been apprehended.
I suppose I should have mentioned the fact that I was hospitalized in my last post, but I didn't want to upset Aiden after all he'd been dealing with at that point.
They released me this morning mostly because Chastin and I both insisted that we couldn't stay there. My arm is far from better and it won't be for a long time. Apparently, I'm extremely lucky they don't have to amputate it at my elbow since the tissue was so destroyed.
I'm really worried about what may have happened while I was passed out. Why did Slender Man spare us? Did he do something to Chastin? I don't know what to think...I hope things get better for us once we're with Aiden, but I'm worried that our presence will make Aiden a target too.
I don't know...I'm totally at a loss right now. We almost died and now I'm starting to suspect Slender Man finally got to Chas while I was out. I can't begin to think like this now...this is probably exactly what Slender Man wants. He probably knew I'd leap to the conclusion that he'd taken Chas to sow seeds of doubt in my heart and to drive me away from my allies. Not only does that leave me vulnerable but, if I'm wrong, it means Chastin will die. (Chas went to bed so I typed those last few paragraphs myself, by the way.)
Aiden...we'll be there soon. We both need some sort of comfort in these troubled times.
Betrayal
All I can really say is that I didn't see this coming. Derek was a proxy? KK murdering him and declaring that all other proxies she encountered would get the same? She and I talked once awhile ago and she told me she would strive for revenge against Slender Man and his servants should the worst happen, then it did and she told me she'd given up. I don't understand it...
I'm not sure what happens now. I want to be there for Aiden now that he's alone again. If he does go back to being with us, though, what will we do then? He sounded like he wanted to stay here in his post. Mind you, there really isn't anything better for us to do anyway...I suppose I had hoped we might try to find KK and put an end to this, but she'd definitely kill us if we found her.
The only problem with the whole staying here thing is that the longer we're here, the more likely it is that Slender Man will murder us. As I hinted at earlier, Chastin and I had a horrible encounter with him over the weekend. My left arm (the one that had been broken but was healing) is pretty much a bloody mess. I'm missing two fingers and the skin all over my arm is in tatters. It kind of looks like I was caught in an explosion, or at least it did before we went to the hospital Saturday night. My arm is now covered in heavy bandages and in a sling since the bone went back to being snapped in half. I've had to have Chastin type all this out for me. It's time I recount what happened to us, but I need to do it in another post since it'll be a long one. I'll have that up tonight too, I promise.
For now, Aiden, we're going to need to come to where you are. I'll call you. I hope you won't be too shocked at how messed up we are...
I'm not sure what happens now. I want to be there for Aiden now that he's alone again. If he does go back to being with us, though, what will we do then? He sounded like he wanted to stay here in his post. Mind you, there really isn't anything better for us to do anyway...I suppose I had hoped we might try to find KK and put an end to this, but she'd definitely kill us if we found her.
The only problem with the whole staying here thing is that the longer we're here, the more likely it is that Slender Man will murder us. As I hinted at earlier, Chastin and I had a horrible encounter with him over the weekend. My left arm (the one that had been broken but was healing) is pretty much a bloody mess. I'm missing two fingers and the skin all over my arm is in tatters. It kind of looks like I was caught in an explosion, or at least it did before we went to the hospital Saturday night. My arm is now covered in heavy bandages and in a sling since the bone went back to being snapped in half. I've had to have Chastin type all this out for me. It's time I recount what happened to us, but I need to do it in another post since it'll be a long one. I'll have that up tonight too, I promise.
For now, Aiden, we're going to need to come to where you are. I'll call you. I hope you won't be too shocked at how messed up we are...
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Interesting
Hi everyone. I'm sorry, I meant to post over the weekend, but I messed up my arm again and now I can barely type. It's a long story and it involves some Slender Man action, so I promise to get to it soon. I mostly wanted to post right now so everyone knows that we're, you know, not dead. However, I was just on YouTube and I came across something rather disturbing...
No doubt everyone remembers Reach. I mean, how could you not? Well, you may also recall that his cousin, Derek, is now trying to find out what happened to him and is documenting it on YouTube. You should watch this...I wouldn't be linking to this if it weren't important to me. I noticed that hardly anyone follows what he's been doing and I feel like the current situation is definitely worth keeping an eye on. You can probably guess who he finally ran into from the way I'm talking about it...
I'm sorry if this is a worthless post. I've just been following him from the beginning and, as someone who shares his predicament, I'm concerned.
I think I just like typing this stuff out to calm myself down, so you'll have to forgive me.
Ai, I'd like to hang out again soon, but I know you need to look after KK so I can understand if you won't be able to see us anytime soon. I just...think Chas and I could both use some cheering up right now, especially after what happened to me a couple days ago and after seeing that video today.
No doubt everyone remembers Reach. I mean, how could you not? Well, you may also recall that his cousin, Derek, is now trying to find out what happened to him and is documenting it on YouTube. You should watch this...I wouldn't be linking to this if it weren't important to me. I noticed that hardly anyone follows what he's been doing and I feel like the current situation is definitely worth keeping an eye on. You can probably guess who he finally ran into from the way I'm talking about it...
I'm sorry if this is a worthless post. I've just been following him from the beginning and, as someone who shares his predicament, I'm concerned.
I think I just like typing this stuff out to calm myself down, so you'll have to forgive me.
Ai, I'd like to hang out again soon, but I know you need to look after KK so I can understand if you won't be able to see us anytime soon. I just...think Chas and I could both use some cheering up right now, especially after what happened to me a couple days ago and after seeing that video today.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Meeting up with Aiden
Hey everyone, sorry for the lack of posting. Taben's death took a lot out of me last night and we had a bunch of Slender Man problems over the weekend that I will recount at a later date (meaning probably over this weekend). Aiden and I met the day before yesterday in the evening. I was worried about going out at night, but I figured it would be okay since we met up at the Rose Garden again, which is a fairly busy part of the city. I was relieved to see him again, honestly. He looked so much better than he did when we were last together (which feels like a long time ago now...).
Aiden sat at
one of the tables working on his current project and keeping an eye on his
surroundings as if looking for me, frowning slightly and appearing
to ponder how he'd look and be and react after all that had happened in the
past few weeks.
Me: (I spotted him sitting and waiting for me and
rushed over to him.) Aiden! I've been looking all over here for you.
Aiden: (He looked up and stood, a slight smirk on his
face as I approached.) What, did your eye sight get ruined by my psychotic ass
along with everything else? (He looked him over, frowning with worry.) It's
good to see you... how...are you holding up?
Me: I'm fine. I'm healing, at least. (I gestured to
my broken arm and nose.) These are a bitch, but nothing I can't deal with.
Aiden: Mmm... (He sighed heavily and shook his head
before hugging me, being careful to avoid my hurt arm.) I'm glad you're okay...
And I still feel awful... I just…wasn't myself... at all. I was horrible...I'm
so sorry I did this to you...How... (He stuttered.) How's Chastin?
Me: He's fine. (I glared at him in mock anger.) But,
I told you not to worry about what happened. I forgave you a long time ago and
I understand. Please don't worry about it.
Aiden: Yeah yeah... (He sighed and sat down gesturing
for me to join him.) I know. I know... I'm sorry but, I'm always gonna worry.
No way around it. I caused a lot of hell to you guys... I'm still expecting
Chastin to show up and beat the shit out of me. You know he could...
Me: (I sat.) He won't, don't worry. I won't let him.
I just don't want you to let this bother you, especially since I don't hate you
for it. You've got too much to deal with right now besides that.
Aiden: (He shrugged, getting back to work on his
project.) I'm not that busy... just finally settling in... it's kinda nice...
I've come to terms with a lot this past weekend... I just... I dunno it's a
matter of seeing how things go from here. I'm kind of nervous about talking to
them in person about my…err... feelings. (He seemed to concentrate harder as
though trying to hide his feelings, his face flushing a deep red.)
Me: (I nodded.) I'm glad you've been able to find
some peace. That's mostly why I had been so concerned about chasing after you.
I didn't want you to do anything drastic...I'm happy KK was willing to show you
compassion.
Aiden: (He snorted before bursting out laughing.)
Compassion? I guess... maybe. If that's what you want to call the lump on my
head. (He chuckled a bit more light heartedly.) It's just... I don't know it's
nice. It's hard to explain, y'know? After all the shit we've been through? I
mean fuck, to think it was all a fucked up illusion. Sure as hell felt real.
Me: I know...I'm just as amazed as you are. I saw
these wounds heal. I felt like I had enhanced senses. It's scary to think he
was able to manipulate us like that. I mean...dude...we were proxies. (I sighed.)
At least we knew he wouldn't kill us during that time period.
Aiden: I guess... (He frowned sitting back and
looking to him.) ...what do you guys plan on doing...? I mean…are you going to
leave and head home? Or are you going to stay around the area?
Me: We'll probably stay here for the time being. I
don't think we have the option of going back anymore. (I looked around nervously
and wrung my hands.) He won't leave us alone, you see.
Aiden: ....He's been bothering you? (He frowned,
looking at me worriedly.) Where have you been staying? Find one of the larger
hotels if you can... ask for a room up on a high floor. I can't break KK's
trust. I can't bring you home. It'd only exacerbate things anyways. I don't
want to cause any hurt, to her or Derek. She's been...well I don't want her any
worse...I want her safe....I want you guys safe but... (He sighed, shaking his
head and running his hands through his hair in frustration.) I'm so confused; I
don't even know what to do anymore. I know what I want to do but... it's hard
to keep an eye on you all and keep you all happy.
Me: Don't worry about us. We move hotels every night
and we'll go to a different city nearby if we have to. I wouldn't ask you to
take us back with you, especially not after talking to KK. (I smiled.) Just
keep worrying about KK. Hell, I'm worried about her too. You have a better
chance of making a difference in her life than me, obviously.
Aiden: (He smirked.) Right... I guess we'll see how
that goes when it gets there... (He chuckled.) I never expected to feel like
this. I damn near thought I was imagining it honestly. Going crazy. I didn't
want to betray Brennon... I loved him... I still love him. I'll never stop. But
I can't stay sad and mopey. The way I see it, we're all fucked, and we're all
going to die. So we need to concentrate on living. So... let's live... (He
shrugged simply.)
Me: I'm happy you were able to come to that
conclusion. I was afraid for a long while there that you'd just give up. So,
I'm guessing you want to stay and try to help KK as much as you can? I don't
mind.
Aiden: (He nodded.) That was kinda the idea. I don't
want to leave here and Derek alone. I owe them a lot. If it weren't for the
tough love, I'd probably be dead… (He chuckled and smirked lightly.) You're not
jealous, are you?
Me: (I laughed.) I'm so jealous. You're a tease… (My
voice took on a more solemn tone.) I understand your desire to stay here and
make it up to them. I'll be around here if you ever need me, at least. Chas and
I won't abandon you, I promise.
Aiden: Better not, I don't want to have to find you
and kick your asses. (He chuckled again, a playful smirk playing on his lips.)
So... when does Chastin expect you back?
Me: He should be back from work by now. Is it really
dark already? I didn't even notice. Shit...I wanted to avoid walking in the
dark...I'm gonna run into him for certain.
Aiden: ...I'll walk with you... it's fine… (He frowned.)
I was going to ask if you guys wanted to like…get dinner together and catch up
or something…I don't have to be home right away, Derek's with KK right now.
Me: Chas won't want to go out right now. He and I try
to avoid going out at night nowadays. It'd be awesome if you'd walk back with
me, though. I'd rather not take my chances right now...
Aiden: I don't mind, it's fine. (He frowned.) Safety
in numbers, right?
Me: Yeah, thanks. (I laughed nervously and stood up,
scanning the area all the while.) I'm sorry if I'm a little paranoid. We've had
some bad luck recently.
Aiden: (He packed up his things, got up, and nodded.)
It's fine... I understand. I've been reading... he's still pestering you eh?
Me: (I shook my head and sighed.) God, he's become
completely ruthless. We were in the same hotel for two days. TWO fucking days
and we're greeted by a group of proxies breaking into our room and trying to
murder us. (I hear a noise behind us and turn around suddenly.) Sorry...just
about everything looks like him staring at us right now.
Aiden: It's alright. (He looked around cautiously as
we walked and then looked to me, smirking and chuckling playfully.) You want me
to hold your hand and make you feel better? (He winked at me, grinning.)
Me: (I grinned and burst out laughing.) I'd take you
up on that, but I think Chas would break my other arm.
Aiden: (He chuckled.) Sure he wouldn't go at me? Remember
how he got when I got touchy when I was drunk that one time? (He paused and
flushed bright red.) Yeah... I was wasted...
Me: It was funny at least. (I chuckled.) I think he'd
hurt us both in some way. Wow...I haven't laughed like this in a long time.
It's good to have this sense of normalcy for once.
Aiden: Well, you have my number and as long as you
stay around here, I'll be here... maybe I can get KK and Derek and we can all
figure out something just...take a day with the group of us doing something. Might
be good to have some normalcy...even if it's false.
Me: Pretending to be normal keeps me from thinking
about Slender Man, at least. I'd like a chance to work something out for all of
us.
Aiden: (He nodded.) Yeah, it'd be nice... maybe it'd
help KK out…she stays mostly locked in the apartment all day. I really worry
about her...she was nearly suicidal the other day and I ended up heading back
to the house earlier than intended... I'm glad I did though... I think it
helped me realize a lot of what I... feel isn't false.
Me: She as good as told me outright that she's ready
to give up...I'm just as worried as you are.
Aiden: (He frowned and nodded.) Don't worry, I'll do
what I can. I mean…she’ll probably kick my ass for assuming she's weak. I know she's
not but... well yeah... (He flushed and looked away.) You know...she...helped
me and stuff... I'm protective of Derek and her or what they did for me... (He smiled,
looking to me.) Besides...Derek's quite a looker and KK's my type of girl, I
mean if you take Taben into consideration... (He sighed frowning.)
Me: I hope you can be of some help. Like I said, as
much as I'd like to help too, you can help her a lot more than I can. (I looked
down at my feet.) What...should we do about Taben? Should we just let it go?
Aiden: We don't need her knocking you out and duct
taping you to a chair....And... I don't know what we can do about Taben...I
think he's lost. He lost Ryan and Allen.... It destroyed him.
Me: (We reached the
door to the hotel and I stopped and turned to face him.) You're probably
right...I just don't want to abandon him.
Aiden: Neither do I... but... what can we do? He's
with Andromeda... and I think you and I both know where that's going to lead...
Me: I guess we can't do anything...as much as I'd
like to help, I don't think he'll listen to us anymore. I'm happy, at least,
that you're safe. I was afraid I'd lose both of my friends.
Aiden: (He managed a light smile and patted my
shoulder.) Nah, you're not gonna get rid of me... I'm like a roach. I'm hard as
hell to kill. (He grinned and then looked to the hotel.) Well... looks like
you're home for the night? ....do... do you need any cash to help you? I still
have some from…well... everything...
Me: Keep it. We'll get by. (I shrugged.)
Aiden: ...if you say so... (He frowned.) If you need
anything you know how to get in touch with me.
Me: We should do this again. (I laughed and hugged
him.) I missed hanging out.
Aiden: (He smiled and returned the hug.) Yeah, we do.
Next time it'll have to be a date. (He grinned playfully.) I'll take you out to
dinner, maybe a moonlit walk on the beach... (He grinned teasingly and winked.
) Maybe Chastin could even join in.
Me: That sounds saucy. (I grinned broadly.) We might
just have to take you up on that.
Aiden: (He chuckled.) Live in the moment. (He shrugged.)
I'll catch you later, I had better get home. I don't want to be out too late.
No telling when slenderpy will try and go after me.
Me: Now I feel bad making you walk back by yourself.
(I frowned.) I'm sorry, here I was all worried about him jumping out from
behind a bush at me and now it could happen to you.
Aiden: Bah, don't worry about it... besides, I have
money, I'll hail a cab... and if he still comes at me, well, I'll just giggle
at teh ghosties. (He chuckled and shook his head.) Really, I'll be fine.
Besides, I'm short; I can slink under his radar easier... I don't identify with
the Jird for nothing. (He grinned wide.)
Me: I believe you. (I smiled sheepishly.) I'm glad I
got to see you again. This has helped a lot.
Aiden: (He nodded.) We'll do it again, don't worry.
You have my number. I do mean anytime. (He looked around before turning away
and starting off, waving to me over his shoulder as he walked his way home.)
Looking back, Aiden was certainly right about Taben. There was nothing we could have done... Wow, I'm sure it's obvious that I'm still upset over this.
Anyway, given KK most recent post, Aiden was right to be worried about her. I'm absolutely sure there's nothing I can do in this situation either, which pretty much makes me feel totally helpless and useless. All I can really do is survive and help Chastin do the same right now. Aiden, I hope you can help her. If you ever need me, I'll be here.
On another note, I haven't slept properly in days. Chas and I take turns keeping watch at night, and even when I'm sleeping I feel Slender Man watching us. Chas never says anything, so either he can't see him or he's trying to protect me. When I'm awake he's never there and I feel nothing. I don't really know what to make of what's been going on. I'm reluctant to let Chastin stay up alone given my recent paranoia.
Aiden, keep me updated on what's going on. We're just...surviving right now, as I mentioned before.
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