It's coming

You're right, Aiden. I feel it, too. There's something ominous in the air here. I wish I could do something to help...I want to kill It as much as Aiden does. I wish I could comfort Taben somehow...he's been a good friend to me.

Aiden and Brennon have spent these last couple days trying to figure out how to deal with our recent tragedy. Taben still hasn't come out of his room and I'm not sure if they've told Allen yet. The young don't usually understand death enough to allow it to grieve them, but Allen's a pretty smart kid. I'm thinking that, somehow, he'll understand, and that isn't necessarily a good thing.

It seems...pleased with itself...god damn I want to murder that thing. Its very presence here right now is an insult. It's gloating. If that thing could smile, it would be grinning from ear to ear in some sick satisfaction at the sorrow and terror it's brought down on the people here.

Slendy's been...strangely morose. Its strange...but I think he feels bad for not being able to save Ry. I don't think he actually cares one way or the other about humans dying, but he cares about the feelings of certain people in this house at least.

I want to help take revenge on It. No...its not really revenge, though, is it? Getting rid of that monster would be some sort of salvation for certain people. If we could stop It, we would save everyone from a ton of heartache. One tall, skinny, murderous monster on our planet is enough.

I had a thought...right now I'm really of no help to anyone. Aiden is probably the best guy for the job of helping slendy kill It right now. Taben is Aiden's proxy but I'm pretty sure he just counts as an Agent. I don't think Agents have special powers, do they?

So, what about the Revenants? Well, apparently they don't actually exist. Lovely. I don't know what any of us can do, then. I had a plan...I was going to ask slendy to turn me into a Revenant. He's going to turn me into his servant eventually anyway...and if it means I can help then I want it. I'm not actually sure what to believe. Reach said they don't exist but Steward's writings suggest otherwise. I'm going to ask slendy about it. I'm sorry if this upsets anyone...but I need to help. I want to be able to do something. If I don't...if we don't stop It...then there's no telling which one of us could go next.

Also...I thought that maybe if I let slendy have me, he'd leave Chastin alone for good. I promise I'll only let slendy turn me if the Revenants really do exist. I know slendy can't lie.

I am willing.