Devastation

I just...I can't even believe it. At this point I'm amazed we even trusted slendy. I remember Taben was extremely uneasy about slendy hanging around his son in the past. I remember thinking he worried too much because slendy clearly treated Allen the same way he treats Sandra. I thought that meant we could trust him not to hurt Allen. He gave us his word he would never hurt Allen and then he went on and on about how he never breaks his word.

I think...Allen was just another victim waiting to happen all that time. I don't think he was ever "special" like the rest of us thought. I think slendy has to make the children he takes trust him completely before he can lead them to wherever it is they go. I think he was just biding his time and waiting for the right moment. He didn't want us to turn on him in the past, which he knew we would if Allen disappeared. He was holding out because he wanted to remain close to Aiden to monitor him and to Chastin and I once we showed up here.

Now, however, he has no reason to have us on his side. Relations between slendy and our group were getting uneasy anyway. He probably has other plans for us now. Even if Taben goes back to working for It, slendy can still use this to his advantage. 

My friends are losing everything...Aiden lost his family and Taben lost his husband and son. I wish I could do more to stop these deaths...All I can really do is help Aiden protect Brennon and Chastin now.

Chastin, I swear I won't let anything happen to you. Aiden, I promise I'll do whatever it takes to help you protect Brennon and get through all of this. Taben...you need to remember who your real friends are.

Aiden and I are going to stay up every night from now on and watch over the house to make sure nothing bad happens. I still don't know if I can go for as long as Ai can without sleep, but we'll see. It's been three days without rest so far and I'm still feeling fine. I guess we'll have to see.

Things aren't going very well

First of all, Taben, you will not be killing Brennon or Chastin any time soon because we're here to protect them.

However, I've been thinking about what happened the other day, how I had fallen asleep even though I had resolved to stay up and keep slendy out of our room. Taben mentioned that I'm not taking the time to learn about my new powers and, well, he's right. Lately so many things have been happening that I haven't had time to focus on understanding them fully. I know I need to train myself. Now is a great time to start, especially since Allen is safe here with us and we don't have to worry about facing too much mayhem at the moment.

I'm finally able to go without sleep. I could do it those nights we were looking for Allen because I was moving around and I was focused on something. I didn't feel tired when I had a reason to be out and about. Sitting in a chair staring at Chastin while he slept, however, didn't do much to inspire me to find that inner reserve of energy that takes days to run out.

I haven't slept since Wednesday. I recently got a new game, Catherine, and I decided to train myself to stay up by using that to occupy me. It worked. I'm not tired in the least right now and I was able to keep slendy out of our room like I had planned.

I don't really know what else I can do to master my powers. I guess I could like...meditate...or something. When Aiden's feeling better I'll ask him to help me.

Finally, I've noticed that slendy's been acting very oddly recently. When he isn't attempting to freak Chastin out, he's constantly with Allen. I see him standing in Allen's room at night after I chase him out of ours. I don't remember him doing that in the past. I guess he could just be trying to make sure that It doesn't try to hurt Allen again, but I don't know. For some reason it...worries me. He's here a lot more than usual. It used to be that he'd be here for a couple days of the week and gone the others unless we called him, but now, if he does leave, it's only for a few hours a day and then he goes right back to dividing his time between watching over Allen and being creepy to Chastin (no doubt he has to make time to torment other Runners). I don't know why it bothers me...I just can't shake this ominous feeling I have.

I'm sure we'll be greeted with some kind of hell storm of terrible things soon...that seems to happen a lot.

P.S. Has anyone else been watching the videos being made by Derek, Reach's (or Ray if you want to call him that) cousin? If so, am I the only one that's seeing slendy in them? I swear I saw him in the most recent one but I could be wrong. I hope I'm wrong for Derek's sake, at least.

Checking In

We spent most of last night searching the surrounding woods and in other places for Allen. We couldn't think of anywhere else he could be. It was strange being able to go that long without rest...I'm not even tired now. We took a break to tell Chas and Brennon that we hadn't found anything and because I needed to eat (that apparently hasn't changed despite my new powers). I guess I know a little of how you feel, Ai.

Wait...I had a thought. What if It took Allen into the Path of Black Leaves? I'm fairly certain that It and slendy could keep a normal human alive there using their powers. At least, I would hope that's the explanation. I'd rather not let my mind stray into the "Allen could be an It proxy" area for now. Ai, I know it's a long shot but I feel like we should check there too. If you want, you can just send me and you can keep looking out here. The most likely place there is the castle and I'm pretty sure I can handle anything there now (besides It, of course).

Also, regarding Andromeda, a part of me wants to beat the shit out of her for what she did to KK. I know that it's more prudent to leave it be for now and focus on saving Taben, though. I'm sorry, Ai. If she comes here I promise I'll try and be civil for as long as I can. Hell, maybe we'll get lucky and slendy will command her to help us or something (doubtful, but still).

 Anyway, I guess I'd better go back out for now. I don't know where else we can look, though. I guess we could like...try and interrogate It if we have to. We're both pretty badass now, after all. I can feel It somewhere to the left of me. I'll have to see what Aiden makes of that.